Halfway under construction...

Superficiality is ultimately something that does not phase me. When it comes to a significant other, character and one's relationship with the Lord is something that is MOST important to me. 


It's given that we all are born with talents and gifts... but character is something that must be developed. Character must be carefully cultivated and nurtured over time. Solid character will reflect itself in consistent behavior while poor behavior will seek to hide behind deceptive words and actions [[[ummm hummm]]] 
I'm glad that I have decided to go "under construction" for now I am practicing, observing, and I am able to use discernment... making it a second natured thing. 


By spending a lot of time with a person, you can discern his character. APP- not there. It's apparent that APP is not independent of the superficial ways in which society operates... still entertained by many many shes. COW- LOL, not para mi but very cute & kind. 


Choosing a life partner is a matter of getting to know people who cross your path and evaluating them by the uncompromising [but realistic] standards you have established beforehand... but always recognizing that you will find more than one person who meets those standards. [Hence, dont go crazy when one person that may have seemed to be great in most areas, dont work out]. He does not fail, He knows your desires, He will make any path straight... all to those who diligently seek Him. Know your harvest is coming. I know it and believe it! But I must do my part and do so consistently. 


The person you decide to spend the rest of your life with is a deliberate, sober, feet firmly planted on the ground decision. The choice we make calls for a firm commitment on our part to be faithful to the one we choose... no matter who may cross us afterwards. So, no need to rush but do allot time for evaluation, discerning, understanding, and knowing. Meanwhile continue growing (growth is never ending), learning, and making a truth out of all experiences beforehand.   

**************Purposefully Calibrating **************

There's just something about a woman with confidence

Today my mother is off once again to another trip to the treatment center. Although she has had a very gradual recovery post surgery, there has been yet another complication. However, despite this new complication, there is a new air about her all together. A level of confidence, security, gratefulness, and grace that has far surpassed anything I have witnessed thus far. Although she is not at the end of the tunnel, she has seen the light. She has seen a small crack of light that has left her praising in advance! Her energy is so positive and it certainly portrays that of a true conqueror. Today she said, "I'm not going to wear my wig or hat today. I'm going to let my hair down"...its the first time she's out in public with nothing covering her head! Walking so gracefully, head high and back straight, she looked just like a super model! 


There's just something about a woman with confidence, she has it!

***My Mommy the prayer warrior, dream supporter, love giver, spirit lifter, and all around inspiration for my life. I am beyond blessed to have her not only as my mother, but as my best friend.***


Come August 2011...
Just like my mother has shouted even before she has reached the end of the tunnel, I will do the same. 


I'm a bit nervous about moving to a big metropolitan city and starting a rigorous graduate program. At times, I'm still in disbelief that I got accepted to one of the best optometry schools in the nation. Given the opportunity to complete SEP, I proved myself and ended up performing as one of the top students! I must constantly remind myself... I did it once, so I know I can do it again once the actual semester starts. I am nervous, but I'm ready to start this journey!  


I must also remind myself that I have once loved, loved genuinely and with my all. I was involved with someone that served a great purpose in my life for just that moment. It was a wonderful feeling, but it wasnt right. Together we were not standing on a strong foundation. We had a phileo/conditional type of love. I look at that as the preparation for the real thing... AGAPE. A type of love thats unconditional, self giving, others-conscious, self initiating, never changing, unwavering, and like that of a tree. Dating purposefully, I know that whats to come will be greater than what was before. I trust in Him with all my heart. I give myself to Him to establish my steps (Prov 16:3), give me the desires of my heart (Psalm 37:4), and to make my path straight (Prov 3:6). E.A. keep that 1:1 commitment!

So beautiful and inspiring 

Knowing August will be here in no time, I will approach my new journey with confidence. Head high, back straight, and standing tall! Yes to success in school and yes to him!

My Affirmations

I am blessed to be well grounded and standing firm on His word. 
- I am blessed to have gone through difficulties, challenges, and heartache that has lead to my grounded-ness. 
I have embodied James 1:2-4

I am blessed to have such a great family and a wonderful group of friends, for I embrace you all! I'm complimented, given constructive criticism, and kept in check from time to time.  Each of you are individuals who have my true interest at heart. I love you all. 


I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful. Psalm 139:14 NIV
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous - how well I know it. NLT

I am beautiful inside and out
I am happy
I am healthy 
I am loved and I know how to love ---->>>> wholeheartedly

And I am blessed 2011 brings about a mind transformed and renewed!

I know and believe that my years in optometry school will be successful, my mother will be secure, my Knight will be ever so great, I will be fruitful and bear fruit that will last (John 15:16), and I will be rich in love. So I am walking in annoitance now!! Speaking it... knowing it will become a reality! YAY!! 

Theres so much symbolism in this picture :D

What to do...

We have been battling this for over 6 months (X 2 too). 3/17 marks the date that she has been delivered from the disease! Thank you Jesus!!!

But now its the recovery period....

This period has been extremely difficult for her. Almost 2 wks post sx and she's still weak, fatigued, sore, in pain, and experiencing excessive fluid retention. She is scared, concerned, and worried out her mind. She has several questions... and all the answers are the opposite of what she wants to hear. She's looking for a speedy recovery and doesnt seem to accept "letting time play its role" as an answer. 

At times I feel helpless, useless, and like theres nothing I can do. I wish she can just awaken to no pain, worry, or discomfort from the sx or just life in general. But I cant empathize. I cant say, I know what your experiencing. I sit, listen, and observe that she's in pain and far from a happy state. I comfort her by being there and providing her with constant reinforcement that He works in mysterious ways.... letting her know that after this period, there's a blessing coming her way that will be more than abundant. This darkness serves as a temporary stumbling block that will turn into a stepping stone so high, her upcoming blessings will exceed expectations by far!

However... what to do when nothing comes? What to do when what your expecting doesnt seem near... no matter how big or small that "thing" is (healing, deliverance, acceptance, marriage, stability, etc)? What to do when you feel like a useless helper?  

REMAIN CONFIDENT. DONT GROW WEARY. BELIEVE

Believe with your heart that theres a promise in store for you. Before you possess it, there will be a process. Promise --> Process --> Possession  

Believe you have rec'd it even when nothing comes. Dont lose faith and dont give up on your promise.

 

Hebrews 10:35-37

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For, 

"In just a little while, he who is coming will come and will not delay."

We must take our eyes off the "circumstance" and look at Him. 

- Look at pass rewards. Know if He did it once, He'll do it again. Know that your harvest will be reaped as long as you dont grow faint. 

- Dont let your fearful and doubtful mind serve as a blockade to your faith. 

- Confess. Speak - It'll be what you want it to be and that nothing will turn to something. But still, during the face of nothing, continue to confess. 

- Praise. Praise in expectancy. Shout before the wall comes down. Shout because its coming and you know it!

Best Friend ...

We will see through this. This is only temporary. Healing is coming your way, just stay faithful and believe. Theres so much more this world has to offer, so much we must do together! I know you will be the finest woman come my white coat ceremony this fall! You will meet and love the future Mr. .. and the future kidsssss will loooooooooove them some Mee-Maw lol. Don't let this circumstance tear you apart. Keep you eyes on Him and speak your harvest. I love you!

Hey beautiful lady! I love you X's infinity!

Blogging... such a great outlet :D

Simply Redeemed. Dear Self

“To take charge of your life, you must have the courage to look at yourself honestly.” ~ In the Spirit

The ultimate purpose of life is to... live with a purpose. To believe, serve, bear fruit, give, walk in love, and to continuously grow in the awareness of our savior… to establish and maintain an intimate relationship with Him, and to imitate God (Eph 5:1).

Self- Are you who you say you are? Are you being congruent and walking the talk? Does your action match your intention? Are you who you think you are, or who you want to be? Are you making wise choices? Choices that allow you to face fear and work through them? Have past stumbling blocks been turned into stepping stones? Are you walking by faith and remaining independent of the superficial ways in which society measures success, beauty, love, or intelligence? Are His commandments stored in your heart? True desire is when we allow God to put His desires for us into our hearts. Are you living Psalm 37:4? Is your gaze fixed directly before you? Are you presenting your requests to Him by prayer with thanksgiving? Are you rejecting any limiting thoughts that are undermining your self-esteem and worth? 

In me, there is the range of humanity— I am patient, impatient, considerate, selfish, strong, weak, steadfast, wavering, confident, insecure, humble, and arrogant. I can be extreme, contradictory, complex. I am like a young and small volcanic island, yet fruitful and promising.

On things that don’t necessarily matter or apply to me specifically, it’s easy for me to provide an opinion and/or give advice, whether it is or isn’t requested. However, on some issues that apply to me specifically, I usually hold my tongue for silence speaks first. Ummmm… I am outspoken when it comes to others but reserved when it comes to me. Which one am I? Outspoken or reserved?

I’ve noticed that I tend to be the nicest to girlfriends and those I don’t know and more hurtful to those I care most about. Am I kind or am I mean?

Purposeful calibration is constantly taking place. Yes I am not perfect, but I always have the desire to improve.

***I am not perfect, but I have been redeemed***

I Will Wait For You

"I will be the one drenched in Proverbs 31, waiting for you"

POWERFUL, POWERFUL, POWERFUL spoken word! Couldnt have said it better myself. In agreeance 100%. I will wait for you. Just like in the beginning was the Word, I will know him because he will sound and shine like your Son.

Beautifully spoken. 

Warrior 2

My type of warrior can be classified as an umbrella with several words defining [[[Me]]]. My warrior is [calibrating...], patient, caring, athletic, beauteous, (add nice adjective here* here* here*) and spiritual

Qualities of a Spiritual Warrior 

"Spiritual warriors do not react to circumstances, they respond to God...they see everything as an opportunity to learn, grow, advance, and increase faith...they have taken their own internal territory...warriors 
cannot be intimated by the enemy, because they are too busy being fascinated by Jesus...there is a place in the Spirit set aside for us where we make the enemy confused. We weary him by our rest. We discourage him by our faith. We demoralize him with our joy. We depress him by our endurance. He is dispirited by our favor; defeated by our grace..." 


"A warrior's/ woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her"
(he has already sought and found the gym  and already processes  great qualities and good looks... hehe. Nonetheless, its important to be "that" person. Theres validity to the saying... you are what you attract)


Stemming from my consecration period and motivated by P.B. Wilsons' YKSA; the refining, filing, and sandpapering of bricks continues- 6mo (el fin b4 Philly)!


There's just something so powerful and beautiful about a long standing love that stands firm!
Cosby's Show. Golden Anniversary. Celebrating 50 Years. Too Funny!! 
I think I'm going to have my little ones performing skits too lol

I'm a Warrior!

Purposefully calibrating is soooo fitting for this moment in my life. I'm more than enthuse at this state given that I'm climbing higher and higher up the ladder towards balance, maturity, and completion.

The real teacher that has lead me to this point is life, for it offers many experiences. Experiences that bring about wisdom and fulfillment.

Why do I consider myself a warrior? At 23?? 

I let my experiences serve as a truth and a lesson. I understand that to lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life. I have opened my heart to the energies of true emotion and attacked the knots of my mind. I have let pain and heartache serve as purification of the mind and body... burning out obstructions... even the ones I havent face yet because my sight is not ruled by my flesh. I have used my experiences to build the road to my own gate; all while standing on a strong foundation, God's solid foundation stands firm (2 Tim 2:19), for no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ (1 Cor 3:11). It is not knowledge that serves as nourishment to my spirit and well being; but intense deep feelings, purpose, and constant energy. 

1 Corinthians 9:24-27

Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air. No, I strike a blow to my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to other, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize. 

Living purposefully. Reflecting, planning, searching, deciding, and my walking lol. Doing it with a purpose! I'm a warrior because Happiness has attained me (an old friend called me "square" for always smiling but hey...),  because I am ready to strike a blow, ready to run this race, ready to love, eat solid foods, and stand high. 

<<<I cant help but smile because I'm already standing --- thinking about poking eyes, harvest, and the fruit I will bear (I want about 4 pineapples)!!!! >>>

Hebrews 5:14

Solid food is for those who are mature, who through training have the skill to recognize the difference between right and wrong 

And WOW what a true warrior here! Got a fierce warrior look and all! She had 8 pineapples! I dont want that many though

I Love you Grandma!

"A smile is the lighting system of the face, the cooling system of the head and the heating system of the heart"

Soul Mate

EAT LOVE PRAY

"A Soul mate is not your perfect fit like portrayed. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything thats holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever??????? [You will encounter more than one soul mate]. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. Their purpose - shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it".

NOW LET GO! Elleigh... let it goooooooooooooooo!!!

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New Year

New Beginnings 

Putting my trust, faith, and all in God. Believing! 

Belief = Faith = Victory <---- blessings that are more than abundant!

John 14:12-14

Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.

The best is yet to come!!!

<<and consecration begins>>